i do higher level biology which is extremely hard for a person who does not commit to school and does not like school so we did our end of year exams of the first year and i am in a two year programme, this is high school by the way, well yea, there are three of us doing higher level and the other two are smart people, i got a fucking 3 out of 7 because that is how the IB works, the only problem is, is that i spent a total of 24 hours studying for biology, and this is including maybe 5-10 minute breaks every hour, I just can not take it any more, being this fucking stupid and incompetent. I am tired, I am giving up, I have about 10 months before the real exams and i just think that right now the way I am feeling, it should not be felt by anyone, I am useless in this fucking life, I do not care if you see this as stupid teen emo stage, it is not, but I do not have to explain myself to anyone, i just want to put into words how i feel. What am i possibly supposed to do with myself, i feel utterly useless.

there I am gone

bye